please, don't love me when I least deserve it; you are not my mother; punish me with indifference because that's what will keep me going; don't allow me to be overindulgent with myself, don't allow me to depend on you, don't allow me to expect the same love when I fuck up the next time. love me only when I love myself more, so I will be the one who can walk away without scratches when the time comes.